rain 10/26/09

the rain falls
and I stand in it
waiting for it to stop
will it ever?
I wait for the rainbow
but it hasn't come yet
what if it does?
how long will it last?
will it last at all?
or will one raindrop fall
and start the cascade again?
how long
will the cycle last?

fixed? 10/26/09

she sits
broken
from the pain
it feels like too much
will no one try to fix her?
does no one care?
she waits
but no one comes
to rescue her
from herself
she knows there's something wrong
but why bother fixing it?
what's the point?
is there one?
about to give up
she searches
and looks up
at You...

fearless 10/21/09

I wait for it
the pain
the heartache
it is inevitable
bound to come again
but this time
this time I will not be afraid
because I know
You are here
and You don't leave
I am safe
when I am in Your arms
or walking by Your side
there is nothing
nothing
to fear...

clarity 8/27/09

her head rests
on the tear-stained pillow
as she lays down
hoping
praying
for things to get better
assuming that they won't
because she believes
that she doesn't deserve it
will she ever realize
what Wonders there are
just waiting
for her to find them?
how long
until things are made clear?

I am the girl... 7/8/09

I am the girl
who cries for no reason
the one who seems
to bask in her misery
I am the girl who
observes the world
from the outside
the one who watches
the lives of others
I am the girl
who keeps to herself
as best as she can
avoiding the people
who have done all the damage
I am the girl
the wallflower...

facade 7/7/09

this mask
is attached
maybe forever?
a permanent facade
can no one see past?
is it as good as I think?
or
can everyone look
and see straight through?
I know they won't like what they see
all the more reason
to keep it covering myself
covering who I am
my permanent
facade...

say 7/6/09

so much more I could have said
should have said?
but instead I walked away
leaving the unsaid behind
keeping it where I prefer:
the unknown
but I begin to wonder
if my preferences
are not for the best
I wonder what
if anything
would come of saying
what I may
what I want to
need to
say...